Can't sleep...

Mom is leaving tomorrow. It feels like one of my legs will be amputated soon (in 24 hours!). Dad's here, but the amount of care he can give Rem will never compare to Mom's. This translates to more responsibilities for me. Not that I'm complaining.

Stress just gets to me lately. Deteriorating health (I lost at least 10 lbs), slacking off school (Haven't opened my book in 2 weeks), spending less and less time with Sterling. But I cannot give up, because I have to be with Rem all the time. I just feel the need to. I guess I am scared of him falling into frustration, into loneliness, into depression. This is the time for me to prove myself as an older sister, willing to take care of my shoti. I just wish I have more help. That's all...